Update of Joan's condition September 1998

September 17, 1998

Hello to all and thank you for your prayers and good wishes.

The Prayer Page continues to amaze and delight me.

I think it's gone far beyond 'me', though. I see the Prayer Page as an outpouring of love from people for eachother...it is truly exhilarating to see 5,000+ candles burning....

Once again AngelicArtistry seems to have proved the power of love, as it did a year ago when we first came online....I am thrilled and humbled to see that AngelicArtistry has a life of it's own!

The reason I've been so long posting this update is because I went to all new doctors and didn't mention that I had been to other doctors and had received any treatment. The outcome was shocking.....they all say I have only three months to six months to live.

At first I was devastated and shocked....I was so certain the other doctors were wrong....

to have the same prognosis given to me by new doctors was awful!

But, as I said, I've been doing a lot of deep thinking and this is what I've arrived at:

Many people die in car crashes, fires, drownings, etc. and they never have the opportunity to tell their loved ones goodbye or even how much they love them. I'm making it a point to let my family and friends know how much I cherish them....

To my mother, Martha Orlando, thank you for giving me life and for standing by me all through it. Please know that 'if I could have picked my mother I would have picked you'.

To my husband, Phil Kirk, I love you, Honey and from wherever I am .... I will love you always!

To my daughter, Lorraine...you are my life....my reason for living....you are my immortality...

I love you more than life itself!

The most painful part of all this is that I won't get to hold your babies and sing to them as I sang to you.

And to be there if you needed help with your children....that's a grandmother's fondest dream!

But, please, turn to Cathleen for help and advice.....I know she would akways help you.

To my husband's daughter, Cathleen, you are a joy...watching you with your three girls, Melissa, Shannon and Lauren are some of my life's most memorable moments.

To my husband's son, Jim....How proud I am of you! What a fine man and wonderful father you've become. I pray for you everyday of my life because I worry about you driving those big rig trucks! I'm very sad that I won't get to see Rachel, Jesse, Jacob and Jonathan grow up.

To my brother, Joe, all I need do is close my eyes and I can relive so many times of our lives together. I remember teaching you to swim....and I remember how you used to run out the door when a date brought me home and carry on like a nutcase...to scare them away....you have always been able to make me laugh till my sides hurt.

And to my friends.....

Carolyn Patterson, my very first friend

Carolyn and I learned to count to ten on eachother's toes

and many years later she was my bridesmaid.....I love you.

Christa Okon.....In the years since you moved to New Mexico I have missed you terribly but I know it was good for your heart and your soul to move to Santa Fe....I wish you health and happiness.

We always laughed and said someday we would be old women rocking together on the porch of some old folks home.. ...I love you.

Jean Jack, my friend and next door neighbor.

I know you love me...you show it to me over and over again with your sympathy and understanding.....I love you.

Miriam Sims, my 'Minnie' How good it is to have you back in Woodstown....you were sorely missed!

I thank you for so very much for your caring....I love you.

Anita Fisher, Senorita Anita, my dear friend who is also fighting cancar ... even as I write this I worry about you....maybe we'll be together in Heaven....I couldn't ask for better company....I love you.

And, most especially, Kendall, my Cyber-sister, who taught me everything I know about computers...and that's not very much....but it was a huge job!!!

What can I tell you, Kendall, as I type this, your picture is taped to the frame of my monitor and I look at your beautiful smile and it makes me smile.

Can people come to love each other through the Internet?......I think we're living proof of it.

I hope to be able to hold you tightly to me and tell you how much I love you. You have given me so much joy!

Well, this is all I can do today...it's time for another nap.

Joan xxx

Updates on Joan's Condition

April 1998 / May 1998 / June 1998 / July 1998 / August 1998 / September 1998

October 1998 / November 1998 / December 1998

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